Monday, September 3, 2012

Fill, Dump, Reload

Reading, reading, reading. My brain is so full, so tired. The thought of trying to add one more book of City of God almost makes me cringe. Not because I don’t appreciate it, but because I am trying so hard to process what I’ve already read. I struggle with speed reading, knowing I’m not catching every word. It feels like cheating, but that’s what our professors want us to do. I resign, not because I want to, but because that is the only possible way get it all done before class. My mind wanders....thinking back to the beautiful days of summer -- back to lazy days of reading, volleyball, laying in the sun, family, friends, bowling, baseball games, backpacking, and water fights -- it all comes flooding back. I begin to miss my little younger brothers all over again. Something else that made the summer so wonderful was the growth and change we saw in the boys. They grew up before my eyes, not only in height and age, but in character. What a blessing. Praise God for His faithfulness. 
I thank God for the blessings He pours out on us each and every day. My eyes fill with tears as I think of how every little aspect of life is evidence of God’s overflowing love. The fact that the sun rises and sets every day. The changing of the seasons. Finding something you lost, receiving a sweet text from your daddy that just says “hey, thinking about you. I love you.” The joy of wearing a sweatshirt on a chilly evening. Receiving a care package from your mom which includes Oreos and a coffee thermos. So often we overlook the small things that God places in our lives. God loves it when we take delight in Him, in the little things He made, and in the little joys in life. I am so overwhelmed with the idea and presence of His great love. 
It is too much to comprehend, but never to much to give thanks for. Thanks be to God for His infinite and unfathomable love for His children. And now, it is time to return to the books. City of God calls whether I feel ready or not. 

*I wrote this one night last week when I just had too much on my mind to focus on Augustine. 


  1. I so appreciate your desire to really absorb what you are reading and the challenge of reading for speed and the big picture. Keep up the hard work, surely it will get easier with practice.

    We miss you too and can't wait to have you home for a fall break of fun.

    Love you!

  2. Hi Marissa! I found your blog off your mom's blog, and was delighted to read a couple of your posts. This comment is probably a little surprise to you... anyway, I was so happy to find you in the blog world, and you have a beautiful blog, too!
    I'm following. :)
    Hannah Hopkins (from New Mexico, now Vermont. ;))